May 7, 2008

I'm a blog cheater

I admit I am a cheater. I rarely go to my own blog let alone yours. I use my google reader to keep up with you all. I don't even have my side bars up to date. I hope I haven't offended any one. I hope I'm not alone in this, either ;) 

So, if it seems like I've been absent, I haven't been from yours, just my own. The depression has just about taken over. I am battling it every day. Some days I don't know if I'll make it till the end of the day. I don't even enjoy taking pictures that much any more. (which makes me sad) I appreciate all of your blogs and the joy and happiness you experience. It helps me to be somewhere else for a little while. How I wish I could've been at Women's Conf. with you all. Next year for sure. It probably would've been just what I needed.  

I'm hoping that as soon as Baseball/softball is over - mostly - I'll start feeling better. Oh, and the upheaval of our lives for a new, and better, chapter of our lives!

Thanks for hanging in there with me. 


Heidi said...

Gosh, Hillary, if you don't feel better after ball season, you should really think about going to a doctor. I know it is money you don't have but, with all the meds people at my house take, I know how much more valuable the mind is then just about anything else. Have you tried going through the county? Heidi

Christie said...

I'm sorry you're struggling. I hate when life throws me into the low canyons for a while. I much prefer the high vistas. Hang in there!

Never A True Aggie said...

Today, go outside. Even if it is for like 30 minutes. Get some sun and Vitamin D in your system. Let the kids run around at a park for a bit and take a breather.

Now that Don is teaching, I understand end of the year teaching craziness. We only have two more weeks of it. I know it gets tough, but hang in there. Again, go outside for a bit.

Try some B Vitamins as well. I understand those help for mood as well. The county can help. You can call Access. I have a friend that worked with people from the county. She was great. I will try to find her email and let you know. She lives in Concord and does home visits.

andrea said...

hard liquor?

just some thoughts.

hang in there girl. it always gets better.

Amy Jorgensen said...

Hey babe! Hang in there. I know how lows those lows can get. Devastatingly low..."think you're never going to pull out of it" low, "don't know if you can make it to the end of the day" low, "burst into tears when the toilet paper roll is empty and your sitting on the pot" low. It's bad. I have been known to cry over toilet paper rolls, trust me. If you email me I"ll send you my phone # and we can talk. Anything else I can do? Let me know.

Phoebe said...

I wish I lived closer so I could come over and hang out and at least try to help!
I agree with Katie. Try to get out a bit and find some sunshine. Or at least skip a few ball games:)

Tristan said...

I think you and I need to go to lunch and get some retail therapy! Got a credit card you want to be a little irresponsible with?? I always do ;)

I am thinking of you always!