I am going to write my fears, inadequacies, and worries here and now and move on. But I think, for me, I have to put them down, on "paper".
I doubt myself as a mother. I don't do the things I want to do or think I should with my kids. I lose it with them more than I keep it. I want to provide them with every opportunity they need and want. I want to teach them more about the gospel and have them love and rely upon it as I do. I want the financial security that it will take to provide for our children (if you only knew how bad it really is). We need / have to move. I don't want my children to hate me for taking them away from their friends and everything they know. I want to provide a better life for them.
I want to be more organized. I have stacks of things everywhere. I don't know where anything is. My house is a mess. I am a mess. I am out of shape - FAT really - I eat so badly! I am not setting a very good example for my children, especially my girls, of how to be a strong vibrant woman. I have put too much on my plate.
I am not practicing my faith and relying on it. I do have faith. It can be very scary to use it though. Why is that?
I am moving forward. I need to see where I am at. As I look back at the things I have written, I can see that things aren't so bad. If I change the word want to have, I can change my life. I know the sun is coming out from behind the clouds. I'm going to post about the wonderful blessings I have in my life a little later. No need to comment, I just needed to get this out of my head, but I love to hear other's experiences and what worked for you.